Goodbye and Hello

Things are still pretty much the same more or less. I still have no job. Class work is ridiculous, in fact I just got out of a four hour lecture. I'm no where near drawing conclusions. Still, nothing is put together. The black gunk is still there, the towels are still ruined, the walls haven't been painted. BUT, I feel good.

I feel good. I don't know if I'm happy, but I just feel good. I'm smiling and just enjoying the moment, and thinking nothing more. I feel invincible. Right now, I'm not angry at anyone. I don't think life's unfair. I haven't thought about tomorrow, or next month's gas. I haven't thought about up coming birthdays, or who I've been out of touch with. No one really made me feel good, I did it by myself.

However, I do know one thing for sure. I've closed a chapter. I'm starting a new one. Problems are going to carry over and the situation I'm in, isn't really going to change, but I'm starting a new one. There are some things that aren't going to carry over. Things that will end in that chapter. Some people will not be carried over. Things that I associate myself with will change. My outlook will change. I will carry over what I've experienced and hopefully apply to this chapter. I want more growth out of this chapter. I want a new set of problems. I want new experiences and situations. I want to be challenged. I want to be more active. I want to reach out. I want to move on. I got tired of doing the same thing day in and day out. I tired of seeing the same people, and going to the same places. I got relentless of the same routine. Eventually that tiredness turned to exhaustion and I needed a break. I'm not completely back, but I'm making my return.

I'm saying my goodbyes to UCI thank you for my college degree. I'm saying bye to the three years spent in the edge. I'm saying goodbyes to some people, thanks for the memories. Adieu wants and times of loneliness. Farewell to struggles and frustration. Goodbye to fallen tears, and a bruised heart. Au revoir

Hello to the unwritten, unexpected plans. Hello to encounters and new acquaintances I hope we can be friends. Greetings experiences and obstacles, I hope I grow from you. Welcome new memories and laughs. Hello to new tears, and scarred heart.

On a side note, I love fall. The season has so much warmth and colors. I'm anxious and excited to start my new chapter in such a beautiful season.