2011=Acceptance? Yeah, we'll see.

As most of you know, I have control issues, if you didn't, you do now. In particular, there is this one person I end up controlling a lot. Mostly, how I would like him to think; that it should be like me. But is it there something wrong with the idea of taking value upon success, freedom, and having ambitions? I mean, isn't that everyone? Well, maybe not.

I became very conflicted after finding out that he didn't have the same opinion as me when it came to talking about the use of pot. I felt that I did a good job in explaining why the use of it was a disdain. I gave good reasons as to why I would like to be free from being dependent from the things of this world like money and how drugs would bind you. I continued to disagree that although it is an outlet to cope with stress, there are much healthier alternatives to cope and even pointed out things he admitted he'd like to do when he was stressed like being in nature.

Well anyway, this brings up the real matter or rather question in hand. What defines right and wrong? I mean is it so wrong to smoke out once in a while? Is it wrong to have a drink after a stressful day? What's wrong with getting drunk and having a 'good' time? How far is too far? I mean as long as I have a conscious and know where to draw the line and at the end of it have no regrets does that constitute what's 'right'? Do I just love the way he is and allow him to do what he wants? I can't fix him, can I? I should just love on him and accept him how he is? I've been having great conflict in answering these questions and have found myself settling.

Compromise.

But in the end, what am I to stick by? There seems to be holes and exceptions that doesn't fit with the morals I've been taught.

This year feels much different from last. I felt every pumped and ready to take on 2010. For 2011, I have an unsettling feeling. Maybe it's how it started out...There are some changes coming this year, whether it's for the better or worse, I shall ride through them.