Me vs. Me

You.

I've loved you and I've hated you. I've cherished and I've regretted. I've remembered and I've forgotten.

You.

I love you and I hate you. I cherish and I regret. I remember and I forget.

You.

I've gotten upset over you and I've smile at you. I've cried and I've laughed.

You.

It's been loud and it's been silent. It's been hopeful and it's been hopeless.

You.

It's been busy and it's been lonely.

You.

I will love you and I will cherish; I will remember I will smile and I will laugh. I will be happy and I will be hopeful.

Do YOU think if I say this enough it'll be so?

You.

Why?

I win some hours and some days and then I lose some. I lose most. I keep trying to put one foot forward I do. I haven't come far and it's so easy to go back. I've started over again and again and again. Rather it's become a cycle now. I fight myself. It sounds so silly. I'm silly. It's all so silly and who cares? 

I.

I am my best friend and I am my worse enemy. I am my support and I am my own critic.

I.

I am a group and I am one. I am surrounded and I am not.

I.

I am strong and I am utterly weak.

I.

I fight fight fight and I lose.

You have moved on with everyone else. I got left behind and lost without knowing where I am, I am alone. I need to find my way you know? I have to. 

The weight of this world is all too much to bear. 

Who wins tonight? You do you. You win. Even in this battle me vs me you win...