I should really try to sleep.. or study if I'm awake, but since I'm not I'll write a quick one and not do the latter.
Couple things to come back to later (the list only keeps growing.. I'll get to them eventually):
The thought of leaving things just hanging. I need a sense of completeness. I can't deal with parting unfinished and bitter. Something that I've been thinking about is that nothing lasts forever; people included. The person who see either everyday or once a year might not be there the next time and what if you left things unsorted? Especially something blunted with bitter and frustration. I need closure.
What have I turned into? Really more like a Frankenstein. I've created a monster. I am my worst enemy.
People look so small. There are sometimes I look at things and they just seem really small. But it wasn't so when I was a child. When I was a child I thought I could take on a lion or a grizzly bear or a dragon and I would come out of it without a scratch. Our perceptions and beliefs that we have as a kid blurs and eventually fades away over time. Screw becoming an adult I want to stay innocent forever.
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